It is said that we all have an internal clock. I know I do. The problem is that my life goes by a different schedule or no schedule.
Plus sleep is a problem. Sleep is like a spirit who doesn’t like me, or at least have a love hate relationship with me. Sleep is a friend with benefits (we used to call it a F____ Buddy) who torments us with a promise of love then yanks it back. Sleep throws rocks at my window one day begging for me to let him in. Then he won’t show up for weeks. Sleep is not my friend. I know, I know, I have to just get over it. Plus the day/night/Vampire thing is a bitch if you want to live in the regular world, which if you have kids, is something you need to do. I mean, I know you know what I mean.
But forget Sleep. He’s a bastard and we don’t need to talk about him right now.
My cats keep a rigid internal clock. They are up in the wee hours before dawn. They let me know that 5:00 am, before the sun comes up, is time for breakfast. It is then that my own clock sets in and creativity flows the best. It is a new day without the distractions from the world around me. It is the time before I start wondering why I’m up during the day instead of the night. It is before the time I have to get my teens ready for school (oh the drama of it all.) It is a time when my Vampire husband is tending to his own business. It is a time when it is my time alone, with just my thoughts and the cats.
All parents need this time alone. Your kids need it too. We all have our prime time. Our time for creativity, our time for work, our down time, our up time, our own clocks… even if the clocks are a little off.
Yes my clock is a little off, but then again, I’m a little off too. But that isn’t a good thing or a bad thing. It’s just a thing.
And so is coffee, which I need badly right now.
Wishing you all a good week. Expect more on high school, ancient vampires and other quite unexpected adventures and musings in the coming days.
~ Juliette aka Vampire Maman